A few years ago, February 14 was the day when I, possibly for the first time in my life, followed my heart and didn't try to reason with it. I decided not to look back. I chose to believe in something more, something supernatural. For once in my life I dismissed the idea of being a realist – when I woke up on that fateful day, for at least the next 24 hours, I decided to become an optimist.
February 14, known as Valentine's Day in many countries throughout the world is actually not (officially) celebrated here in my country. That was partially the reason why I picked this day to be the day I'd just go for it and do my best to surprise her. To make her happy when she'd least expect it. Allegedly, as she never shied away from showing her dislike of the "damn American holiday." Wait, I didn't tell you? It's about a girl. I mean, it always somehow is, isn't it? Moving on.
I manned up, hastily managed to buy the few things I needed to make it perfect, and made her presumably the simplest gift ever - didn't matter it was simple, though. I did it with passion. After what seemed to be hours of just making a mess with glue and wrapping paper, I left the neatly wrapped package on the girl's front porch later that day. I rang at her door and I went home not long after the sunset… and you know what? I knocked it out of the park. Or so I've heard. Well, in fact I've heard I made both the girl and her mom cry so I'd say that's something.
Nevertheless, I'm not going to tell you what it is I gave her. Because if there's one thing I got out of all this, it's that it is never about the ending, it's about the journey. And it took me months to realize it wasn't about me getting the girl, no. It was about the fun I had doing all the crazy things and how it made my life a bit more worthwhile. It was ultimately a dead-end relationship; it never really took off to begin with. But since I came to the realization, I've chosen to hold on to this memory of mine, as in the end it only made me stronger. That's why… I will never forget February 14.
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